just expressing a present feeling

I don't know why
I feel this some times
Like when you don't care about me
When you ignore me and leave me for your friends
It seems like you don;t care anymore about me
Especially nowadays
I feel like you're changing time by time, day by day
I don't know why
I need you beside me
But you're never available for me anymore
I don't wanna miss anything
But the fact now i miss everything
You know what,
I miss the moments we usually spent together
I miss the moments when you made me happy, when you made me laugh or smile
I miss the moments when you loved me too much
I miss the moments when you said 'i love you' when we were gonna say goodbye in a day
I miss the moments when you hugged me
I miss the moments when you kissed my cheek
I miss the moments when you whispered some words to me
Don't you know that?
Don't you feel it too?
Don't you feel the same?
Don't you understand?
Don't you realize it?
I can feel it..
But I just don't tell anyone else
I just keep it to myself
Only God and I know
You're getting far and farther each day
I don't know if you're deliberating or not
Each time I ask you, you always say that I'm too over
Well, maybe It's just my feeling
That I keep inside my heart
But, hey, I'm a sensitive girl!
I can feel it
Even though you say NO, but I feel it as a YES
Are you avoiding me these days?
I don' know
But I want you to answer me
I'm afraid
I'm afraid of losing you
Really, I have loved you
And I'm afraid with the things happened around us
I'm afraid they will influence you
I don't need you to be always beside me every time and everyday
But I just need you to show that you care for me
That you love me so
That you love me as much as you did
But I think you just don't love me as you did, right?
I can feel it
Please be honest to me
Don't just keep it as yours
It's ours to talk about
I miss you much, really
I want to talk to you
I want to hug you
And maybe I want to cry on your shoulder if I can
I love you
I'm really afraid to lose you
I don't wanna get mad at you
So I always try to be patient
Whatever you do, it will always be okay for me
Don't avoid me, please
I need you beside me

Even I know, it will happen to me like it has happened to my friends, you will leave me, soones, or later T.T

"aku sayang kamu, jangan gini yah"

-angelswastika-